小学，中学，大学了！

懵懵懂懂，混过了幼稚园。

天天真真，混过了小学。

吵吵闹闹，混过了中学。

半懂不懂，进入了大学。

两年的幼稚园生活，把懵懵懂懂的我们改变成了会守纪律。

~教会了我们如何守次序。

~教会了我们如何尊敬师长。

~教会了我们一些最 basic 的知识。

六年的小学生活，把天天真真的我们改变成了不再天真。

~我们领悟了，生活不是只有"红橙黄绿蓝靛紫"而是有1600万种颜色。包括：灰色&黑色。

~我们领悟了，我们的生活不会再那么的顺心。

~我们领悟了，简单将不再属于我们。

~我们领悟了，天真将不再属于我们。

五年的中学生活，把整天吵吵闹闹的我们改变成了有点稳重。

~我们明白了，梦想，就真的只可以在梦里想。

~我们明白了，理想很丰满，现实很骨感。

~我们明白了，失败&成功的滋味。

~我们明白了，我们该长大了。

四年的大学生活，把半懂不懂的我们改变成了什么都不想多懂。

~我们变得，对所有事不再充满好奇心。

~我们变得，害怕嘲笑变得不再发问。

~我们变得，害怕麻烦而不想多管。

7岁的我们，抱着小学入学通知证走入小学。

一眨眼........

12岁的我们，抱着小学毕业证书走出小学。

13岁的我们，拿着中学入学通知书步入中学。

一眨眼........

18岁的我们，抱着高中毕业证书走出中学。

转眼间，我们都毕业了。

有些人进入了大学，有些人步进了社会，也有些人步进了教堂。

每个人都有自己的路要走，但大多数人都怀念着中学的时光。

中学就是那个你刚来的时候巴不得早点可以离开，可真当你真的要走的时候又希望能多留一两天或永远不要离开的地方。

中学时总爱逃课，但再也不用逃课了，因为在大学里Lecturer不会逼着你去上课。

中学时总爱染头发，上了大学后却渐渐的爱上了黑发。

中学时总爱在班上玩手机，大学里没人限制你不可以玩手机，但你却在上课时 automatic 的把手机给 turnoff 了。

I'm still alive!!

UTAR system crazy already?

3test within 1 week (Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday) didn't consider other students who having individual presentation during this week( Including me) and the deadline of our English assignment was this week also.

How do you think about "why UTAR system do that kinds of arrangement?????"

Training us to work more harder?

OR

Wanna us to fail?

Even that i was put a lots of effort, but i still unable to score very well in the last mid-term test and presentation.

This not my 1st time presentation, why i still lack of confidence and so nervous? And done a lots of mistake during the presentation.

Argh!!

Good afternoon why i said good morning?

And why i din't check through the slide?

"The higher confidence you has, the higher marks you get"

I want to become more and more confidence.

For the ECS test i really din't score very well, because i just read through the notes only.

I din't memorize all the name of ECS term.

Therefore i can't score well.

Next time i must put more effort in final.

Still got 6week- FINAL again.

At the end, i wanted to tell every1 i'm still alive.

I didn't been killed by UTAR crazy system, and crazy tests arrangement.

HOPE

CNY is coming soon, but everything were change.

I hope everything can turn back to the original pattern.

I hope everything can back to the right way.

I hope the problem will get solve very fast.

I hope everyday is a great day.

I hope everything never be change, especially the things we care the most.

I hope every one can always stay in happy and health.

If i had done anything wrong,

Please forgive me!

And please forgive other also.

If u saw this,

Please come together with me to realistic my easy HOPE.

You can do it!

Just depend on u want to do it or not.....

Like doesn't have second chance,

Don't do something u will get regret,

If u were done it,

Please!!!!

Go back and do correction, if not u will regret until the moment u dead.

I hope u don't do it.

1st day of my Sem3

Time passed so quickly, so fast i was a Sem3 student,

The last Sem in foundation. If i pass all the subject in this Sem.

Today i just having 1 class only "English For Communication",

because all the Tutorial not yet start.

That all today...........

I just like a invisible person

I just like a invisible person, every1 also omit me.
I'm the last 1 in everyone's mind and I'm the last name in their friend list.
No matter what I had done and said, no1 will sense it.
I always is the last 1 in everyone's mind.
I was tried to improved this situation but it is useless.
Haha
I'm the person abandon by everyone, no1 will care about me.
I was improved, but just like no people will aware I was change.
So now i find out that i better keep my mouth shut, because nobody will care about me.

Sometime i find out that i can't be too sensitive about other action.
Because it will made me felt more sad, because them felt that i duno them dislike me.
But actually i can sense it. "I WAS DISLIKE BY EVERYONE"
Just i act like i don't know, but them felt that i really duno.

Actually i can know a purpose of a person, but i can't tell his/her frds.
Because, his/her frds will said that i want to break their relationship.
Because i just the last 1 in everyone's heart,
I just the last name in their mind.

SEM2 Final Result were out

Finally the result were come out, when i'm shopping at Mid Vally.

Disappointed no A, just got A-

Especially my Management can't get A, just B+

My Computer Technology also, just B+ only. Unbelievable!!!!

Walao!!!!WTF!!!WTH!!!

What i"m doing???

But the result still achieve my minimum expectation,

Is better compared with SEM1.

But i should happy because my ENG get B, but my ENG still need improve.

Hope that next SEM my ENG can get A also, but i think that is impossible.

Hahaha

Ok!! It were passed.

Now focus on my SEM3 final exam.

Hope that my frds all pass the exam, i no wanted to see other frds withdraw form UTAR.

Go Mid Vally shopping today, With my frds.

I want go SHOPPING, i want buy long pant.

I dun have NEW long pants.

Human life is short, but if this despicable too short life, it too long

Human life is short, but if this despicable too short life, it too long~Shakespeare
Last few week I always keep complaining time no enough but now, I'm wasting my time everyday and do nothing everyday. Everyday sleep, Facebook, Dota, Watch movie. I hate my life like that. "Time Is Gold"I know that, but I still keep wasting my time on the things that are meaningless. I still got 10days holiday, but I find out that I really nothing to do and no plan to do anything.
I start became lazy, I wanted to get a job any part time job for me??

Argh!!
Everyone go back school already, but I just start my holiday only.
Why UTAR's system always deffer from other university?
The exam time always crash with other holiday. Haiz!

Argh!!
Bored ahhhhh!
I want go shopping, but no1 can accompany me.
Lonely, I'm so lonely....argh!

Waiting the result....................zzzzZZZZ
Faster come out lah.....Argh!

All out of my control

Tired already!

Everyday keep try to pull all the things into the right way, until now i only knew that i unable to lead all the things into the way i want. I was tried to lead all the things into the right way but...FAIL

Some1 can tell me what should i do?

And how to do NOW??

1 thing

2 things

3 things...........

All start out of my control, and the things will out of my control is increasing day by day.

Tired already!

I do that does not mean I'm obstinacy, just because i scare.

I scare get hurt.

I scare get injury.

I no want get hurt again and again.

I no wanted to feel the feeling of pain. I scare already.

"I'm fine"

is easy to said out but actually you really fine?? Nobody know about it, and nobody care about it.

They ask " Are you fine" just like you saw u teacher and said "Good morning teacher" is for respect only, but actually not really care about you.

"Put down"

You think that put down is really so easy?

But it is very difficult for me. I also want to put down, but i can't get do that. I tried to put down before but finally I find out that i lose to do that. So i no wanted to forced myself anymore, just let the time be the medicines for me to put down. I believe time is the only medicine for my heart.

Final Exam is coming soon..... 3 more week. But me still no mood to study and not yet start my revision because of some reasons.

Every time when i open the book i will feel sleepy and felt that FB is more interesting for me. No mood study how?I no want my result worse that last SEM.

Finally i find out that:

I'm tired can't walk anymore need take rest already.

Go take MC....MC

Every thing is going to end

Time passed so quickly.

NOV is going to end, DEC is coming soon.

SEM2 is going to end, SEM3 is coming soon. ( so fast i will become a degree student)

2010 is going to end, 2011 is coming soon.

So fast all the lecture and tutorial will going to end, the Final Exam is coming soon.

Everything were passed so quickly, until myself unable to adopt the situation. Since i came to KAMPAR already half year. But i felt that the half just like few weeks only, actually it was already half year.

If everything going smooth, so fast i will get graduation.

If everything going soomth, so fast i will get a job with high salary.

If everything going smooth, so fast i will get marry with my beautiful wife.

If everything going smooth, so fast i will get a child and become a father.

If everything going smooth, so fast i will retire and enjoy my retire life.

If everything going smooth, so fast i will dead.

If everything going smooth, so fast ...................(THE END OF MY LIFE)

HAHA

That kind of life sure super boring, everything going too smooth. None stop of smooth, everyday just keep repeat doing same thing. No some special things, no some difficult situation how come the life become no boring leh?

Suddenly homesick miss my sweet home, no reason, no anything. Just felt that i wanted back my sweet home, meet my family and talk with they, just a feeling. Maybe i'm tired wanna back home take a rest or maybe i really miss my family. This few weeks really busy, none stop of assignment, test and video clip. Now i can said byebye to all my SEM 2 assignment and all the test ( just left last- G.math mid-term3). But all the presentations is coming by next week.

Wed- General math mid-term3

Thus-Computer Technology presentation

Fri- Management presentation(30min) OMG

Said byebye to all my presentation and test = Welcome my Final Exam =='''

Time to study, hope that i can get a great CGPA compare with last SEM.

ENOUGH!

Can't bear anymore...Need someone to talk, so stress,tired and sad. Everyday act act act, no want to face that kind of trouble anymore. I always wanna to be a prefect human, always suppress my emotion. Actually I not a prefect person. When i face stress i will become other person, i will become so emotional, so moody and easy get angry. Help me get out from this hell, i can't stay at this situation anymore, even 1day also can't. I'm going to be crazy, always need to face that kind of trouble. Can give me a easy way out? Continue keep like that i will crazy...crazy...crazy...crazy...STOP IT...please!! I beg you!! I beg you!! Need someone to talk but none 1 can be my listener. I wanted talk to someone about my heart sound. But she will never know, that one i want to talk is she. Why so many problem? Why so many trouble? Why? Why? Why?

Why i always need to endure more compare to other?

Why i can't just do what i want?

Why i always need to care about who around me?

Why i always care about what other said and done?

Why i can't get freedom?

Why life so unfair? Who can answer me? I wanted to know that, may i done anything wrong before? Why i need to face so much? I was tired, tired about this situation and no more energy to face that kind of problems. May i give up? I capitulate i lose, you win. I no want to know anymore, and do anymore.

Missing last year moments

So fast, i'm University student now.

Missing last year moments,~ Secondary School~.

Miss the moment we sleep at the class,

(Now University you wan sleep just sleep la....no1 will scold or wake you up.)

Miss the moment we skip the class,

(Now want skip just skip only...nobody will concern about you, call your friend help you to sign all settle already, but you need to consider about your final result. Still want skip?)

Miss the moment we scold by teachers,

(Now no matter what you do, no1 will care about, unless you disturb the lecturer teaching other students. If no the lecturer won't going to stop you doing anythings.)

Miss the moment we halau by the teachers

(Now the lecturer won't halau you anymore, the lecturer will tell you " If you think that you are expert, after you sign your attended list, you can go out/back already. I won't stop you.")

Last time everyday I also hope that: I wanted get out from the hell(Secondary school).

But now I hope that: I can back to that particular moment(Secondary school life).

This is human~"After lost, only knew cherish".

Last year today i still busy about my SPM.

Now i'm busy about Assignment, tests and final exam....

Keep on busy.....haha

Within this year, a lot of thing were change.

Some become more better but some become more worse.

That is life....Nothing is perfect.

Something imperfect will make our life more colorful and won't be too bore.

Now already NOV. This year is going to end, 2011 is coming soon and my Final Examination coming soon also.=='''

Hope that i can get greater result which is compare to SEM1. Higher self-believe, higher performance. I Believe I Can, Than I Can.

Hope 2011 will become more better, everything will go smooth, no hinder and difficult.

Hope everyone who are live in this world can be healthful and happyness.

Stress

Stress are going to break me down...

So, tired..... Enuf....enuf....

Don't give me anymore External pressure....

I was unable to bear anymore.....

PLEASE!!!

If you all continue keep like that...

I'll going to be crazy....

PLEASE stop tell me anymore about that kind of words.

STOP IT!!! STOP IT!!

None stop of Tests & Assignments,

Make my brain never stop of thinking and hand never stop of doing.

I wanted to liberate all the stress,

No want stress anymore.....

I need sometime to slow down...

To liberate the stress...

And rest...

Give me some personal roomage.

Give me some personal time.

Give me some freedom.

Give me some fun.

Don't force me anymore!

Please!

Life is tired

A lot of things waiting me to settle.
A lot of things waiting me to do.
A lot of book waiting me to read.

Life = a lot of TIRED
May i take a rest?
May i get a free time?
May i slp until automatic wake up?
May i throw all the trouble things away?
I no want my life get bother.

Rush Rush Rush
Time no enough.....

Dun give up.....
Just a temporary situation.

Busy+ Comment for U life

1mon didn't update my BLOG ady.....

Because of busy and lazy.

Start frm week4 every week keep exam exam and exam.....

The exam are driving me crazy.

Until now majority of the mid term ady across.

And the assignment driving me goin crazy also.

Tired+Tired

Frd if u are in secondary school dun think tat U life, will bttr then secondary school life.

You will get disappoint when the 1st day you enter University.

Dun think tat university life have a lot of freedom&fun, no need study also can pass.

Until the end you will get knw ur imagine are totaly wrong.

Especially you are UTAR student.

So frd enjoy ur life, if you are secondary school student.

Because tat style of life won't repeat again.

Plx cherish IT.

And don't always keep complain ur mum cooking skill.

When you enter U you will start to miss the repast cooked by ur Mum .

And don't always keep complain "mum, why you still hvn wash my cloth?"

When you enter U, nobody will hlp you to wash ur cloth, all the cloth you need to wash by urself.

And don't keep complain " Mum why my room so dirty??"

When you enter U, ur hostel will more dirty.

And don't complain everyday stay at house so bored.

When you enter U, you want to stay at home also no chance.(except sem break)

Trust me!

If you dun belief you will get knw when u enter University.

Ady more than 1mon didn't back home. Miss my hometown so much.

Homesick.

Why??

Why i always like to cares something or
some person tat is no important in my life?
How made me become like tat?
Is some reason made me become like tat?
Or this is my natural?
Why i always cares about what other said n did?
Something tat i predictable,
but while the time i get it, i still will feel sadness n disappoint.
I thought i will become like tat,
it is cause by my natural and the environment i facing.
Is time to force myself back to the right way.

At hometown now.

我想念你，你还好吗？

宁静的夜里，除了上网就是读书。

不知不觉，我又掉进了回忆的漩涡。

又想起了你~我生命中最重要的人。

每当想起你时心里都有几许感激，几许心疼，还有几许感叹。

感激你生下我、养大我.........

心疼你的离开.........

感叹你的离去.........

为何你这么快就离开我们？

小时候，你总是牵着我的手去走百货公司。

我还来不及牵着你的手陪你去百货公司。你就离开了!

小时候，总是你服伺我。

我还来不及回报你呢！你就离开了!

突然间，

一幕幕关于你的画面，在我脑海中不断地来回播放。

想念你的好，

想念你的笑话，

想念你的八卦，

想念你的笑声，

想念你的唠叨，

想念你的一切一切。

我好想你，你知道吗？

你还好吗？

生活过得怎样？

还是不是像以前一样，一忙就不吃饭？

你去了那边也快两年了你找到人陪你八卦了吗？

你找到人陪你打牌了吗？

希望你一切都安好。

别再担心我们了，我们都长大了。

你要照顾好自己，别熬夜、别不吃东西。知道吗？

每当我想你时，我都会眼角烧烧地，但我并没哭。

因为我知道你不想看见我哭。

我永远都会记住：

你对我的好，

你教我的道理。

妈！谢谢你带给我的一切一切!

我们能够爱妻、爱子，但我们却场常忘了~爱护父母。

身为儿女者，当你紧紧握住你的女友的手/儿女的小手时，

也别忘了，父母的老手更盼望着我们去牵啊！

1st class of the Sem2

Today is my Sem2 d 1st day....

Having 2 lecture class....

Financial management 12pm until 2pm

General math 4pm until 6pm

So bored...break too long time liao.....

Become lazy liao......

Why this few day so tired 1???

Sleep how long also no enough???

Tmr 8am class.....im going to sleep now.....

新房客

Yesterday just back frm Selangor only........

Walao.....

谁弄坏了my door？？？ I thought is she.....

Rm 175 me pay??? i xxxx u......

Walao the refrigerator have been damage also.....

Rm 400++ me pay also.....

I xxxx u X 10 times.......

My line suddenly become so lag......

I thought she dl+ing......

Walao....

Enough liao har......

S2p......brainless......

To that fat lady

The result

Suddenly the result come out lolx.....
I can said bye bye to Sem4 liao...haha
And also can throw the note into the lake liao....
But can't reach my expectation.....disappoint...
Sorry Mum and Dad....
My target is 3A but now just got 2 only.....Sad....
But luckily my CGPA still over 3.O.....
But still haven't reach my target....Haiz
My Eco ar.....
Why just get B- ?
Walao A!!
I cant believe my Eco just B nia....

WoWoW
All pass i can said bye bye to this 5 subjects liao....Wakaka
Suddenly put down the stone in my heart...
And less 1 of my trouble.....
The feeling was so nice.....

The result out already...
That mean the holiday is almost going to finished liao....
Should i happy or sad??
Happy can meet the school friends liao..
Sad need to go back Kampar and can't go out with hometown friend liao...

Suddenly........
I knew that I fall in love with the logion wrote by William Shakespeare......
His logion so nice..... Meaningful...

Expectation is the root of all heartache.
Nice....no expectation no heartache lol.....

Malacca trip

My eye was almost going to close and super pain.
But I still want to write this.
Because this is a unforgettable trip for us.

Just finished my 3day Malacca trip. (09-12sept,2010)
Just back frm Malacca.
~With~
Jackson,Welem,Katherine,Chin Yang,DiDi,Sin Seen,Yong Hock.
Damn nice......
Crazy trip....Love it!!
Although this trip was very tired, but it was very happy and enjoy.
Damn crazy,everyday also sleep 2 or 3 hours nia.
I'm going to QI XIAO....
A unforgettable trip,hope still got next time.
Haha...

Scary....Scary.......
Our result will be coming out by tmr.....
Hope I can get the result.....(What I want to get)^^
Hope only but i knew it is impossible.....
Good Luck!! Tomorrow