Separation

Most of my friends were changed their relationship status from single to in a relationship, but I still single.

Some people asking me:

Why u still single?

Do you felt lonely?

Yes, I felt lonely and the loneliness growth heavy when I get older.

Loneliness was frightful, but the feeling of losing someone you love so much was more horror.

Once you experienced IT you will never ever forget IT. 

Some person said:
Being separated is a part of life.
We had to learn it and feel it.
This is life!

But I just wanna ask:
May I skip this part of experiences in my life?
I was afraid this kind of feeling.
Separation was too horror.
Especially with the one you love so much!

Sometime I was thinking:
It is possible to loving someone without afraid of losing them?
If we love someone so much, how we able to handle when god wanna separate us?

It is possible for us to live our entire live without loving anyone?
If we without loving anyone, izit the percentage for us to get hurt will be lower?

It is possible for us to meet someone that will never abandon us and never left us alone?
I just looking someone that will never left me alone, so that I can give all my love to she/he!

This would be my little wish!

May I cry?

I hate myself, why I'm a person prefer PREFECT!

It was too difficult to be a prefect person!

I hate myself too responsible, always like to bear all the responsibility on my shoulder!

It was too difficult to be a responsi person!

Why I can't just live like a normal teenager?

I put effort and heart, but until the end....

WHAT I GETS?

GOD u see what u had done?

U just like a bitch!

I will never never believe u again!

I just not as stronger as you think!

U just given me too much of challenges,

I was tired! Please give me a break!

I not a superman or any super natural hero,

I just a human!

I want to cry but I just can't do it!

累了!

一个人在外头久了，多么渴望回家的感觉！
在外头的日子，多么软弱的人都得变得坚强与理性！
或许是逞强，坚持和理性太久了吧！
好久没有感觉到这么累了！
好想好想停下歇歇。

忘了是多少年前的我们，
没有烦恼！也不懂什么是烦恼！
那时候的我们总是太年轻，
就算碰钉子却也不会觉得痛，
就算走错路也不怕要回头。

不知何时开始渐渐的，
碰钉子我会觉得疼，
走错路我会害怕浪费时间。
是我变得敏感了些，
还是这就是长大必须付出的代价？

不知何时开始，我们的单纯被侵蚀了！
取而代之的却是丑陋与邪恶！
在这个严重污染的城市里，有谁可以不生病呢？
或许，出淤泥而不染只可以用在莲花上吧！

或许“累” 与“丑陋”就是成长的代价吧！

18 May 2012

Since I finished my final exam until today,

Suddenly I got time to update my blog.

I was don't how to describe my feeling, 

because it was so complicated that it simply beggared all description.

After I finished my Y1S3 final exam.

It made me felt like very relax and also very stressful, because YEAR2 is coming soon.

The subjects would become tougher and tougher.

But I like those subjects so much, because I like challenges.

Furthermore, stress is my motivation!

This wonderful Y1S3 was ended with a amazing trip!

4days 3night (Cheras, KL, Genting, Puchong trip) 

First day (12 May 2012)

Fullhouse Giant Cheras

Fullhouse Giant Cheras

Second day

I also don't what I doing! haha

Cause keep rushing!

Third day

Genting Highlands Outdoor Theme Park

Coffee Terrace @ Genting Hostel

Coffee Terrace @ Genting Hostel

Yummy! Yummy!

Coffee Terrace @ Genting Hostel

Fourth day

Asian Water Sports Village(Puchong)

Asian Water Sports Village(Puchong)

The end of our trip!

童年!

突然间,好想回到小时候！
为什么人总会在不知不觉中长大了！
如果“童年”就像 Tetris Battle 般时间快完时会通知我们那有几好？
我们就不会浪费童年的时光了！
也不会在不知不觉中长大了！
那种无忧无虑的生活还真让人怀念！
没有担忧，没有烦恼的生活，这么让人怀念！
如果这世上真的有时光机那该多好？
人不只可以回味美好的时光，还可以少掉很多的遗憾！

小时候的梦想，现在成了妄想！
小时候天天真真，现在变成假假真真！
小时候的吵吵闹闹，想在变成不敢再闹！
小时候的天马行空，现在变成左算右算！
小时候总是懵懵懂懂，现在总是太过清醒！
以前总想长大， 现在总想变小!


转眼间，我们都长大了！
快乐被没收了！
天真也被没收了！
慢慢地成熟起来了！
慢慢变得越来越现实了！

简单也不再属于我们了！

所有的期待也慢慢消失了！

渐渐的我们明白了，梦想终究是梦想，只可以在梦里想！

无法挽回的东西总是美好的!

人死后，会去哪儿？

到底，

地狱和天堂，

是真是假?

又是否真的有奈何桥?

相传过了鬼门关便会上一条路叫黄泉路，路上盛开着只见花,不见叶的彼岸花。花叶生生两不见,相念相惜永相失,路尽头有一条河叫忘川河，河上有一座桥叫奈何桥。走过奈何桥有一个土台叫望乡台。望乡台边有个亭子叫孟婆亭，有个叫孟婆的女人守候在那里，给每个经过的路人递上一碗孟婆汤。忘川河边有一块石头叫三生石。喝下孟婆汤让人忘了一切。三生石记载着前世今生来世。走过奈何桥，在望乡台上看最后一眼人间，喝杯忘川河水煮今生“泪”。每个人活着的时候，都会落泪：因喜、因悲、因痛、因恨、因愁、因爱。孟婆将他们一滴一滴的泪收集起来，煎熬成汤，在他们离开人间，走上奈何桥头的时候，让他们喝下去，忘却活着时的爱恨情愁，干干净净，重新进入六道，或为仙，或为人，或为畜。不是每个人都会心甘情愿地喝下孟婆汤。因为这一生，总会有爱过的人不想忘却。孟婆会告诉他：你为她一生所流的泪都熬成了这碗汤，喝下它，就是喝下了你对她的爱。来的人眼中最后的一抹记忆便是他今生挚爱的人，喝下汤，眼里的人影慢慢淡去，眸子如初生婴儿般清彻。

如果，

这传说，是真的!

哪你喝了孟婆汤吗？

I do not understand!!

Everyone in this world are unique,

because everyone in this world having their own personality and....

It is totally difference with their friends even their family.

It was so amazing, even in this world got around 70billion of peoples,

But they are unique compare to each other!

Although it is amazing in some1 perspective,

but it may create a lot of problems when there was existing more than more persons!

So this would be the root of my trouble!

Just because everyone in this world are unique and having difference characteristic,

So it create a lot of barriers when we communicate with other.

Just from my perspective I've dislike those people who are......

Lazy, depravation, no target, don't know cherish what them have and etc.

Sometime I really can't understand why this world got such as that kind of people!

They have family, their farther and mother still alive and love them so much!

But they never feel satisfy, they never cherish, and never respect their farther and mother!

They was the most lucky part of people in this world!

How come they never aware that them are blessed by god!

And how lucky they are!

What those people do is just........................

Complaining they are the most unlucky people in the world! 

Why they dint born in a rich family?

Why their farther and mother don't love them?

More and more complaining never stop!

Lastly, there got the other type of people.

They having those characteristic I mention at above some more they never cherish money!

They will spend all their money or salary into: LV, Gucci, Levi's, Iphone, Prada, Burberry, and etc!

Sometime I really don't understand what their mind is thinking about!

This post is just based on my opinion don't talk about YOU or YOU!

If u feel that you are the person I mention at above. 

I think that you should improve your personality.